Yesterday I was driving to pick up dinner for the family. During the drive I started to get sad as a desire arose in my heart. I desired that I could spend every moment with my boys. I became sad because I know that it is impossible due to many factors, but then God spoke. He said “that is my desire but for all of my children.”
Then the enemy tried perverting this Truth with a thought attack. The father of lies desperately tried making me feel jealous because God is not restricted by time and gets to spend every moment with my boys.
Instead of receiving this feeling, a prayer came out of this trial:
“Abba, Father, when I see you in Heaven, can you show me all the moments I missed with my boys and share with me your thoughts in those moments about them?”
This morning, I had coffee with my mom and shared this moment with her. She encouraged me to not wait until Heaven, but instead pray for Abba, Father, to show me all the moments now and for Him to share His thoughts about my boys now.
Wow! I love my mom.